Wow, its almost September and I must say, I have never looked sooo pasty!

Where has this summer gone and what have I done to really enjoy it. Well to be honest I have done some exciting things this summer, but the more exciting stuff is this fall.

My summer started off quite eventful: I was in Albany for a week and then NYC for a week, doing gigs. Albany pride was so much fun especially seeing someone get their cheek bitten off. Other than that, my gurl Bette was amazing because she let me stay at her place near the bar, which made it soo much easier to go to the shows and pride festivities. Plus she is an awesome woman to hangout with, such a big heart.

I got to see my grandmother, who was diagnosed with Breast Cancer, but has made a recovery. I believe she is the first person in my family to survive cancer, which is a blessing. During this visit, my little sister and I got to spend sometime together and really be the big goofs we are.

RANT MOMENT!: OK, so I love my family dearly but how messed up is this. The cats I had for the longest part of my life are now gone. When my family bought the new house, they got rid of the cats without telling us. So depressing because those cats would cheer you up if you were down. The one I feel the most for is my little sister because those were her buddies, she spent the most time with them.

Anyways....NYC was a blast as well, my older sister and I got to spend some needed time together, the show was fun at Boots N Saddles and I got to see the new Snow white movie w/ Charlize Theron...SHE WAS GORGEOUS AND DIVALICIOUS!!!!!!!!!!

Other than that, Rochester Pride was great and all the amazing photoshoots I got to do. This summer was definitely productive. Now I am excited for fall because I get to spoil myself to boy clothes. JizzaBella has been pampered for awhile, I need to pamper myself.

Keep posted because this fall is the WILD COLLEGE PARTY w/ DeeDee Dubois and I, September 15th! also the Fringe Festival at the Max...details below....Sept. 21st, keep the date =)

DeeDee's WCP Sat. 9/15 at TILT with JizzaBella, Claire, & Guy

$100 hot body contest
21+ free admission from 10-11 / plus $2.50 drinks till 11
18+ welcome
EVERYONE gets 2 for 1 admission with your college ID all night! 

Drag101 Fri. 9/21 - Max at Eastman Place - Rochester Fringe!

Friday September 21st for a fabulous evening with DeeDee Dubois, Sasha Sashay, JizzaBella, Frankie Starr, Roxie LaRoux and Deelicious! 

This one of a kind show is not to be missed... tickets are on sale now for $8:
- rochesterfringe.com
- Wegmans "That's The Ticket"
- 1-877-368-2207
- Eastman Theater Box Office

In the Atrium at Max at Eastman Place... doors open at 10:30PM, show time is 11PM! 

Make sure your not prejudiced but colorful =) 

xoxo
JizzaBella

I have seen too many Bullying videos and it has come to a point where I need to talk about my issues with bullying and why it affects a big part of my heart.

Ever since I was in elementary school, I was bullied and tortured by other kids. It was very hard for me to make friends and try to find people who would accept me for who I was. I was the kid that would walk across the blacktop and have someone kick a kickball and hit me in the head. Everyday I either dealt with nicknames or kids trying to be nice to me so I would help them with their homework, but right after they got what they needed from me, I was no use for them. 

One time I was in Middle School, I had someone start making jokes about me and my mother, calling me big head and saying my mother was fat and bald. Little did they know, my mother at the time was dying of cancer, something she could not prevent nor could she get better from it. The truth is this was not a one time incident in school, this happened everyday. It got so bad that my older sister had to tell me to tell the kids, that my big head wasn't the only thing that was big. This helped for a little bit but then the jokes kept coming back. I never got why people thought my head was big nor did I know why kids would single me out, to make me feel like a small person. Teachers would ignore it and anytime I would complain, I was the person according to them that was asking for it. Apparently I asked for kids to chase me home and throw rocks at me or make me feel like I was not worth anything. There was so many times I wanted to just go into my closet and take my life, to take the pain away and make it feel better. I would dream of dying and the feeling of something being lifted off my chest, felt so good. I could feel so light and be able to feel happy. I desired this every night.

The bullying continued all the way up to 7th grade, until my mother passed away. This is when people found out that my mother was bigger in size and bald due to treatment and was going through a rough time. I had kids come up to me and give me a hug and thought I was fucked up because I was dealing with this at home. They did not care, they felt obligated to feel bad for me and tried to understand what I was going through, but really had no desire to understand. 

After my mother passed away, I felt alone and it was hard for me to give people a chance. I always had a wall up and tried to protect myself from people who would try to hurt me. My mother was my hero and the person to protect me and now that she was gone, I had to protect myself. To this day, I am still trying to protect myself, I try to be this great person and try to hide my sorrows that I have inside, but I find it does not work. The only reason I feel bullying has declined for me is because people have matured and learned that they need to worry about themselves and not others. I still have moments I feel I am in middle school and people are spreading rumors about me or trying to ruin my self-esteem, but the only way I let them succeed is when I show it hurts.

As I see these videos on youtube of kids crying for help it gets me thinking why is there no one there to help. I feel for these kids and I wish I could say it gets better but that would be a lie. Life is a cruel, cruel place and for it to get better, you must keep trucking and live life to the fullest. Anyone that is reading this please know there are people there for you. You do not need to feel alone but do remember, you must be strong for yourself and keep pushing, life will only get better if you allow it. These people that are around you, that bring you down, are only doing it because they have a sad life. Do not let them make your life a sad one, show them the joy of your life and maybe one day, they too will change. 

I love all of you and I am here for you! LETS STOP BULLYING AND UNITE!

Love, 
JizzaBella