Wow, its almost September and I must say, I have never looked sooo pasty!
Where has this summer gone and what have I done to really enjoy it. Well to be honest I have done some exciting things this summer, but the more exciting stuff is this fall.
My summer started off quite eventful: I was in Albany for a week and then NYC for a week, doing gigs. Albany pride was so much fun especially seeing someone get their cheek bitten off. Other than that, my gurl Bette was amazing because she let me stay at her place near the bar, which made it soo much easier to go to the shows and pride festivities. Plus she is an awesome woman to hangout with, such a big heart.
I got to see my grandmother, who was diagnosed with Breast Cancer, but has made a recovery. I believe she is the first person in my family to survive cancer, which is a blessing. During this visit, my little sister and I got to spend sometime together and really be the big goofs we are.
RANT MOMENT!: OK, so I love my family dearly but how messed up is this. The cats I had for the longest part of my life are now gone. When my family bought the new house, they got rid of the cats without telling us. So depressing because those cats would cheer you up if you were down. The one I feel the most for is my little sister because those were her buddies, she spent the most time with them.
Anyways....NYC was a blast as well, my older sister and I got to spend some needed time together, the show was fun at Boots N Saddles and I got to see the new Snow white movie w/ Charlize Theron...SHE WAS GORGEOUS AND DIVALICIOUS!!!!!!!!!!
Other than that, Rochester Pride was great and all the amazing photoshoots I got to do. This summer was definitely productive. Now I am excited for fall because I get to spoil myself to boy clothes. JizzaBella has been pampered for awhile, I need to pamper myself.
Keep posted because this fall is the WILD COLLEGE PARTY w/ DeeDee Dubois and I, September 15th! also the Fringe Festival at the Max...details below....Sept. 21st, keep the date =)
DeeDee's WCP Sat. 9/15 at TILT with JizzaBella, Claire, & Guy
$100 hot body contest
21+ free admission from 10-11 / plus $2.50 drinks till 11
EVERYONE gets 2 for 1 admission with your college ID all night!
Drag101 Fri. 9/21 - Max at Eastman Place - Rochester Fringe!
Friday September 21st for a fabulous evening with DeeDee Dubois, Sasha Sashay, JizzaBella, Frankie Starr, Roxie LaRoux and Deelicious!
This one of a kind show is not to be missed... tickets are on sale now for $8:
- Wegmans "That's The Ticket"
- Eastman Theater Box Office
In the Atrium at Max at Eastman Place... doors open at 10:30PM, show time is 11PM!
Make sure your not prejudiced but colorful =)
Soo with Valentine's day passing, I got thinking, I needed to write about my single life.
For all those who did not know, I am single and always have been! Shocking? ehh not really.
I must admit it gets lonely but at the same time I do not know if I have time to have a boo. With my schooling, work, and drag, life becomes too busy.
But let me say with Drag, it makes it easier to be single because its not like people want me anyways. Drag is the major blocker of dating because people get confused to what gender I am or my interests. I constantly get told because of drag, I must be fem! Well not really, to be honest I like to be pretty "butch" at times too =)
Drag is a hobby of mine and I have become more seriously with it over time, but right now I just need to focus on myself. If I were to date someone, I would need them to accept my drag and what I do with it. It is a big part of me and if someone cannot accept that, then Sashay away!
As I get to know new people, one thing they tell me is they are impressed that I come out and say I am a drag queen and I would have to say that is because I do not want to keep it a secret. I like to be honest and blunt because the truth will come out in uglier forms, if you are not honest from the gecko.
Being single sucks at times especially at night, when you just want to cuddle with someone but I overcome that loneliness and just find one of my fluffy pillows =).
Anyways, I need to get to bed but I want to end off saying, if you think you would date a drag queen or want to give a holler to me? =) then speak up bitch because I have a hard time picking up on signs hehe.
xoxo - JizzaBella
Omg!!!! ONE MORE WEEK!
I have not been on a plane since 2nd grade and I am finally getting on one to go to Las Vegas and LA. Who would thought I would be going out there for my birthday! This is a big treat to myself and I deserve it!
This is a new year and I am starting the new year with positive energy and hope this energy will allow me to have the strength for a certain TV show =)
I also have been selling my tshirts for my birthday and I am hoping people will buy the shirts for my birthday gift =)
Other than that, I pray I do better in school this semester and I hope I have a blast out west. That would be a great birthday gift too! I will be gone from the 1st to the 7th.
Make sure to keep posted for photos and videos from there! xoxo
With Much Love,
I have seen too many Bullying videos and it has come to a point where I need to talk about my issues with bullying and why it affects a big part of my heart.
Ever since I was in elementary school, I was bullied and tortured by other kids. It was very hard for me to make friends and try to find people who would accept me for who I was. I was the kid that would walk across the blacktop and have someone kick a kickball and hit me in the head. Everyday I either dealt with nicknames or kids trying to be nice to me so I would help them with their homework, but right after they got what they needed from me, I was no use for them.
One time I was in Middle School, I had someone start making jokes about me and my mother, calling me big head and saying my mother was fat and bald. Little did they know, my mother at the time was dying of cancer, something she could not prevent nor could she get better from it. The truth is this was not a one time incident in school, this happened everyday. It got so bad that my older sister had to tell me to tell the kids, that my big head wasn't the only thing that was big. This helped for a little bit but then the jokes kept coming back. I never got why people thought my head was big nor did I know why kids would single me out, to make me feel like a small person. Teachers would ignore it and anytime I would complain, I was the person according to them that was asking for it. Apparently I asked for kids to chase me home and throw rocks at me or make me feel like I was not worth anything. There was so many times I wanted to just go into my closet and take my life, to take the pain away and make it feel better. I would dream of dying and the feeling of something being lifted off my chest, felt so good. I could feel so light and be able to feel happy. I desired this every night.
The bullying continued all the way up to 7th grade, until my mother passed away. This is when people found out that my mother was bigger in size and bald due to treatment and was going through a rough time. I had kids come up to me and give me a hug and thought I was fucked up because I was dealing with this at home. They did not care, they felt obligated to feel bad for me and tried to understand what I was going through, but really had no desire to understand.
After my mother passed away, I felt alone and it was hard for me to give people a chance. I always had a wall up and tried to protect myself from people who would try to hurt me. My mother was my hero and the person to protect me and now that she was gone, I had to protect myself. To this day, I am still trying to protect myself, I try to be this great person and try to hide my sorrows that I have inside, but I find it does not work. The only reason I feel bullying has declined for me is because people have matured and learned that they need to worry about themselves and not others. I still have moments I feel I am in middle school and people are spreading rumors about me or trying to ruin my self-esteem, but the only way I let them succeed is when I show it hurts.
As I see these videos on youtube of kids crying for help it gets me thinking why is there no one there to help. I feel for these kids and I wish I could say it gets better but that would be a lie. Life is a cruel, cruel place and for it to get better, you must keep trucking and live life to the fullest. Anyone that is reading this please know there are people there for you. You do not need to feel alone but do remember, you must be strong for yourself and keep pushing, life will only get better if you allow it. These people that are around you, that bring you down, are only doing it because they have a sad life. Do not let them make your life a sad one, show them the joy of your life and maybe one day, they too will change.
I love all of you and I am here for you! LETS STOP BULLYING AND UNITE!
Hello World, Community, my Bellinas or Jizzybears!
I am sure you have heard through the grape vine, that I am taking a break from Drag. This is not a retirement nor is it a goodbye, it is see you later. I am not doing this for promotional reasons or trying to get people thinking, that I am retiring to just have a great come back. The reason why I am taking a break is because I am going to be spending a lot of time on new outfits, hairs, shoes, jewelry, etc. for an audition video that I will be submitting for a special drag show =).
This is something that means the world to me, so I am going to spend a lot of time on it. The other reasons why I am taking a break is because I want to focus on school and work. I have too much stuff to do now and I need to be able to focus.
I love drag, so I will not be gone forever!
If you have any questions? please don't be afraid to talk to me. I love you all and I WILL BE BACK!!
*Do note* My last performance before my break will be October 8th! At Tilt NightClub for DeeDee Dubois' Wild College Party!
Go to https://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=167694959983042 for more information.
Also I will be at Tilt for my girl Venus D'Lite from RuPaul's Drag Race Season 3, the World Famous Madonna Impersonator, to cheer her on and support her. **
With all my love,
How are all my cum dumpsters and my sex kittens doing out there?
I am doing so much you have no idea! But that is for another blog entry! This Friday I will be competing in the Semi Finals at Tilt NightClub in Rochester, NY!
I am "cumming" for the title of Season 2 of Freshmeat Friday Winner!
Hostesses are Samantha Vega and Kyla Minx!
18+ to cum 21+ to swallow!
Please come out and show your support, I appreciate it! Let's party the night away and if you have suggestions for music, please hit me up at firstname.lastname@example.org. I will be bringing my game, giving you some warm jizz! that you will not be able to resist! hehe
Your support helps me win! So please re-post on your wall this event and do whatever you can do, to get the club packed !
See you, August 12th! at 11 PM
With much love,
I am just getting to bed on this fine thursday while everyone else went to TILT, how lame am I? LOL Well this weekend is going to be eventful and I hope quite exciting. Tonight, Friday, I will be competing in the Freshmeat competition as the winner from last week and hope to win again! My drag wife is in town this weekend, Sapphira Cristal and I am glad to have her with me, miss her soooo much. On Saturday, I will be marching in the Parade then going to the festival! After most likely going to Tilt Night Club! Then on Sunday I have the picnic, which I am volunteering at, this should be a great weekend! Please keep an eye out for me and I hope to see everyone there! Love everyone and you should be fine in life hehe <3
It has been awhile since I have written in you and thought I would catch you up on what my thoughts have been recently. After a long conversation with a true friend, I have realized there are a lot of things that I see wrong with myself and the environment I tend to surround myself with.
One thing I tend to do is surround myself with people that I feel are good people, but are not good people for me. Never have I been happy of drugs, violence, or a lot of sex. I am a man and I do find myself being frustrated at times but being a slut is not the answer in my life. I make jokes that I whore it up and that being the Queen of Jizz has its duties, but its all a persona I portray. Some people find it to be true, some see right through it. It comes to that part where you need to get to know me before you can judge me. Another flaw that drips from this paragraph is dishonesty. Me playing a character and having that character blend into my life out of drag makes it confusing for those that associate with me. When I play that persona of a slut as a conversation starter at times....for example: "Want to ride my di*k?"...it makes it hard for people to know what is true and what is not.
That is something I did to my own reputation and no one else. At times I wish I was a slut because that would allow me to feel more attention, attention that I tend to go after a lot, but in reality I do not want the sexual attention, I sometimes look for, just because I hate the feeling of being useless after. I want to feel appreciated just as much as I appreciate others. I have come a far way since the beginning of my exploration of life but there are things I still need to change about me, that will allow me to become that person I want to be in my future! With time, comes change. All I can do now is to move past the judgements of those who do not matter to me and listen to the ones that love me and those who only want the best for me! Life is not a silver platter, in fact it is a dirty plate, you just have to pick your brand of soap of preference to help you clean that grime of life, to give you the finished product of a clean plate! Hahah sounds lame doesn't it? I was thinking that as I was typing it!
Anyways, I want to continue writing in this diary in the future, it helps clean my mind of thoughts I have! Take care and I will be writing more soon!
With much love,
There has been soo much that has been going on lately!
I just finished an article that you may find under the documents tab or go here...
*Click the first article file*
Do read it, it is my first article and would like to know what your thoughts are!
Recently I have become the manager of the most famous Madonna Impersonator, Venus D'Lite from Rupaul's Drag Race Season 3. This has opened many doors for me and has allowed me to persure more in my own Drag career.
I will do a longer post about what I am doing but one thing I would like to mention is you might be seeing someone on TV! is it JizzaBella? Find out soon!
Please keep posted on all bookings and my calendar will be updated soon with all of Venus' Bookings and my own!
Thanks for reading and keep watching JizzaBella growing into that Diva she was always meant to be <3
The random but entertaining Queen herself! The Official Diary of JizzaBella.