I want to first say, welcome back to the real world! I cannot even imagine how it was in there nor do I ever want to. 17 years is a lot for anyone to handle but I can say this, takes a lot of character to be able to come out and be able to look at life with a more positive look.
I am 23 years old and I am a Drag Queen who works in nightlife. I appreciate the things you did for this community and nightlife, you made it more mainstream and allowed it to be more accepting. As nightlife people, we bring excitement, entertainment, and just great times for the customers. We bring business to the venues and make the nights more FAB! You have to be a certain type of person to be able to handle this type of work. You created a type of lifestyle that people will take part in for years to come, thank you for that!
I have been seeing a lot of comments and posts from some people who are excited about your release and there are people who wish you would be murdered. The harsh comments I feel are unnecessary because I do not feel two wrongs make a right. As a tax payer and as a citizen in this country, I feel that if you can't do the time, don't do the crime. You served your time and should be allowed a second chance in this world. I am a strong believer that whatever we do in this lifetime, we will be judged in the after life. Your past will always be with you and your final judgement will be there waiting for you in the next life.
I hope with everything that is going on: the interviews, the fame, just everything, you take it and use it for the best. You have been a role model for a lot of people for years and you let down a lot of people with what happened. Now with this new freedom, you have the opportunity to give back and make a difference. Give back, GIVE back, GIVE BACK! Make the rest of your life a difference and as RuPaul says, "DON'T FU#K IT UP!" but if you have no clue what I am talking about, watch RuPaul's Drag Race.
A few more things before I let you go, I do not want you to think, I think what you did was right. I do not want you to think I am praising you and worship the ground you walk. I feel what happened was very disgusting and no one will ever forget it. But I respect the work you did in the past and I know you will do well in the future.
On that note, fly free bird, FLY and let your flight see many glorious sights!
With Much Love,
Brandon, I never said "I heard you are drama..." I make my own opinions. And you are drama, all I've known you as is drama. U have poor hygiene which is something I've experienced first hand and you probably don't go out cause no one can stand you. I know who you are I've known u since u were 18 so get off your high horse. You sucked as a drag queen u sucked as a friend. No rumors here all facts. Go scratch...
I don't have time for this. I'm an architect now making six figures. That's. 5 figures more then you'll ever make
Everything above pretty much sums up the things that will come into your life, those negative tones and energy. I am thankful for this because if I did not know negativity, how would I ever know what positive things were. I am thankful, that someone came out of their way, away from their six figure job, to tell me how much I suck as a person. Thank you!
All I can say to this is, I might not make millions of dollars or make as much as you now, I might never make that much, but hey, I am going to live a happy life with what I have and never will have to shove it in people's faces. I do not need validation of my happiness because by the end of the day, those people who have been there and will be there until I die, is all the happiness I need in my life. Thank you for helping me realize this!
Now its time to SASHAY AWAY!
This song came on today and really put things in perspective for me. The lovely voice of Paulina Rubio sums it up in her chorus:
"So don't say goodbye
Life is way too short for me to allow people, who try to bring me down, to succeed. I control my life and my life does not end today! I really appreciate all the kind words that people have said to me throughout my life, especially now when I need it the most. My family is going through so much and I have been taking everything in and just letting it sit there. Your strength and support, keeps me going and thank you for that! I am not saying goodbye because its just the beginning!
I have seen too many Bullying videos and it has come to a point where I need to talk about my issues with bullying and why it affects a big part of my heart.
Ever since I was in elementary school, I was bullied and tortured by other kids. It was very hard for me to make friends and try to find people who would accept me for who I was. I was the kid that would walk across the blacktop and have someone kick a kickball and hit me in the head. Everyday I either dealt with nicknames or kids trying to be nice to me so I would help them with their homework, but right after they got what they needed from me, I was no use for them.
One time I was in Middle School, I had someone start making jokes about me and my mother, calling me big head and saying my mother was fat and bald. Little did they know, my mother at the time was dying of cancer, something she could not prevent nor could she get better from it. The truth is this was not a one time incident in school, this happened everyday. It got so bad that my older sister had to tell me to tell the kids, that my big head wasn't the only thing that was big. This helped for a little bit but then the jokes kept coming back. I never got why people thought my head was big nor did I know why kids would single me out, to make me feel like a small person. Teachers would ignore it and anytime I would complain, I was the person according to them that was asking for it. Apparently I asked for kids to chase me home and throw rocks at me or make me feel like I was not worth anything. There was so many times I wanted to just go into my closet and take my life, to take the pain away and make it feel better. I would dream of dying and the feeling of something being lifted off my chest, felt so good. I could feel so light and be able to feel happy. I desired this every night.
The bullying continued all the way up to 7th grade, until my mother passed away. This is when people found out that my mother was bigger in size and bald due to treatment and was going through a rough time. I had kids come up to me and give me a hug and thought I was fucked up because I was dealing with this at home. They did not care, they felt obligated to feel bad for me and tried to understand what I was going through, but really had no desire to understand.
After my mother passed away, I felt alone and it was hard for me to give people a chance. I always had a wall up and tried to protect myself from people who would try to hurt me. My mother was my hero and the person to protect me and now that she was gone, I had to protect myself. To this day, I am still trying to protect myself, I try to be this great person and try to hide my sorrows that I have inside, but I find it does not work. The only reason I feel bullying has declined for me is because people have matured and learned that they need to worry about themselves and not others. I still have moments I feel I am in middle school and people are spreading rumors about me or trying to ruin my self-esteem, but the only way I let them succeed is when I show it hurts.
As I see these videos on youtube of kids crying for help it gets me thinking why is there no one there to help. I feel for these kids and I wish I could say it gets better but that would be a lie. Life is a cruel, cruel place and for it to get better, you must keep trucking and live life to the fullest. Anyone that is reading this please know there are people there for you. You do not need to feel alone but do remember, you must be strong for yourself and keep pushing, life will only get better if you allow it. These people that are around you, that bring you down, are only doing it because they have a sad life. Do not let them make your life a sad one, show them the joy of your life and maybe one day, they too will change.
I love all of you and I am here for you! LETS STOP BULLYING AND UNITE!
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